Friday, October 9, 2009
I have been back now from my trip for a while and still recovering from the bug that I caught. I am pretty happy to say that I didn't end up going to the doctor for it and I believe I am on the tail end. It is big news to us when my body is able to fight off an illness. I have had a lot of personal stress going on at the same time, which has made for a difficult couple of weeks. Hopefully, it has settled down and will clear up soon. It is interesting when you make an active decision to not let stress affect you. We are able to do that to a point, but the reality is it is still there under all the statements of "oh I am not going to worry about it". The difference is just how much you let yourself get emotionally involved. I am happy to say that I have learned to control the stress that affects my immediate family, because the damage to my Lupus and affect that it has on my family just isn't worth the investment. We have enough to worry about and I choose which drama to let in. This has been an internal change since June 15th of 2008 when I was told that I had Systemic Lupus and all the baggage that goes along with it. Everyday that I have without severe side-effects from my illness is a day that I will not give away to someone else. It is time to be selfish for myself.