Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Happy 25th Anniversary & Facing What the Next 25 Will Bring

I am actually a little taken back by the fact that 25 years is actually here. At times it feels like it and when I stop to think about it, it has completely happened in a blink of an eye. If we sat down and wrote out all the happy monumental times and events that have happened, there are actually more good than bad. I believe that we tend to get overwhelmed by the amount of bad and tend to push down the good. I am guilty, I know. But we have shared so many good times that we shouldn't allow the bad to overshadow them and we need to try and bring the wonderful memories to the forefront of our minds and focus on those.
WOW 25 years...and I believe that it feels so numbing and has us both confused as to what to do for one another because it is such a huge accomplishment. I believe that we do so much for each other EVERY day that we really can't top what we have done for one another over the last 25 years in any one day or in any form of monetary items. Just knowing that we both are committed to another 25 years is enough for me. In speaking for myself I am committed to loving my husband and being his wife for at least the next 25 years.
I will do my best to take the best care of myself so that I can enjoy the next quarter of a century by his side. Saying I Love him just doesn't seem to encompass all that I really feel for him. We have done so much good with our time together, not only for each other, but for our girls, and others in need. We have always been on the same path and I think that has been the key to our success.
The same goes for fighting these diseases. He is by my side every step of the way. I don't have to tell him thank you very often because he can see it in my eyes as I can in his. I watched our wedding video and can only wish that I would have taken the time at such a young age to truly study and take in what those few words truly meant and what commitment would be needed to get us through.
Of course, when it came to for better or worse, richer or poorer, in sickness and in health... It felt so surreal to watch the video and see the naive young figures of us from that time. We were both very healthy and could never believe that we would be where we are in this struggle of Lupus. Lupus is one member of our family that I wish we didn't have, but it is a mountain that we will climb hand in hand. There are some rare health occasions that he needs my hand as much as I need his. This is love and it wasn't an instant love, but an earned love, a committed love, and a fulfilling love. The next years to come will be troubling, difficult, and most fulfilling because I won't let this disease take me down low enough to not enjoy and love each one of my family members. I love you all so much. Even though we may not always see eye to eye on things or understand what the other is doing, the love will always be there.
I am asking each one of my close family members and extended family to help me. Help me to endure the pain and help to understand all you can about my illnesses so we can better understand each other.


Careccia said...

You are by far the most courages, beautiful and loved woman in the world. Ciao Bella

Anonymous said...

I love you very much but don't know how I can help you. You have my unconditional support for whatever you need, though. Always and forever, Corina